| Monday, February 23, 2009 |
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oh phoebe! stay strong! don't cry for such stupid reasons! i know it's not hard to forget and get over it... but just stay strong phoebe! i ruined the whole day just for you! i went emo in class! i cried in class without being realised but i was gloomy the whole day thanks to you! i cant believe i still cant get over you! it's useless just wasting my precious tears for you! why why! why cant i just get over you already! trying to force myself to stay strong is soo difficult! dang it! i hate this stop it phoebe! stay happy!!! mel, lexy sorry i made you guess worried and stuff it really isnt your fault lah it's his... yeah... sorry! iloveyou too thanks for the cheer up letter mel, lexy and samantha and thanks everyone for trying to cheer me up today! thanks keller, janella for lending me a listening ear as well... it helped loads! if "YOU" are reading this, i am really sorry! it isnt my fault she got jealous! it's not my fault that she decided to leave you!!! i'm sorry if you hate me yes, i love you as my brother and as you know what! but it doesnt mean i have to tolerate this! i hate you right now! but still, you left me alone! no more talking on the phone at night with you! gone literally! i don't know what to do without you! all my problems are all rapidly gathering inside my life, my heart, my brain! just because you're gone!? i just want to cry! cry everything out! though i cried in class without many knowing! still it isnt feeling relieved at all not one bit! on the other hand, i cant freakishly get along with my mum! !^@!^@!*@%@ one day i ask for one day! we cant even get along seesh! wads wrong with writing on my OWN table! it's mine! wth!!! freako WTH!!! horrible day, terrible day, i cant take it no more! arghhhhh just want to hide in a stone! just wanna talk to someone on the phone~ i really need someone right now! someone who is just perfect for that job! i know the answer who but i dont wanna disturb her... seesh loads of love, phoebe! |