| Tuesday, June 30, 2009 |
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i've been really confused lately... what does it really feel like to be really in love with someone... after all this crazy stuff here and there... i dont know... i am confused... hahaaa i have a friend, she has been good friends with this person... then erm she doesnt know if she likes him. she enjoys talking to him and just hearing him makes her smile. she enjoys his presence and just simply like being with him. she thinks she has a crush on him but she doesn't know if that is a crush or just an admire? advice on tagboard if you may thanks haha cause i still kinda have to reply to her question (: thanks
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| Monday, June 29, 2009 |
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i've been looking happy and laughing loads today :X but that's just a cover... like when they say dont judge a book by its cover... well all i know is that today well walking home, i heard you're favourite song... it reminded me of you playing the guitar and singing that song with me... and somehow today everything comes with a message... i think it's just me though... well somehow you're just stuck in my head huh! i dont know bout wednesday but i just really dont know okk... sometimes i just wish i could just be a normal kid who just studies well and just be herself but now i'm just so used to putting a cover in front of my friends... seeing me happy and cheerful... i wish i was that but sadly i'm not feeling that way though... 5 months and it flew past just like this and now 1 day seems to me like a million years... i just want the days to pass right now... i just want it to be a friday night then i can talk on the phone all night and the next day go to church to help out in the event and on sun have church... church is my only relax place now... no stress... friends that i can share my thoughts with, friends that i can just spend time with and have a blast but no i have to go through this day and tuesday and wednesday and thursday... i just want it to be a friday already... i really hate this feeling... well not much of a colourful post huh... i guess you could say sad... now this is the only place i can review the real me inside. i guess... signing off phoebe...
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| Sunday, June 28, 2009 |
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im done and over like the title said. i'm soo freaking tired of pretending already. yeah i look happy on the outside but do you really know who i am? so stop pretending you know who i am cause you dont i dont even know myself anymore. _______________________________________________________________ i'm asking myself today , tonight. is it worth shedding a tear for you? are you even worthy enough for me to shed a tear for you? i dont know if i should be angry or sad or just stoned. i dont know how you feel but one thing i know is that i hate you. yeah you finally got rid of me HAPPY NOW? yeah i'm sure you are right. yeah i heard what you whispered. yeah you're happy you finally got rid of me right. _______________________________________________________________ i'm telling myself over and over you are a freak! who aint worth my tears. i'd rather shed my tear for some toy then for you. oh and thanks alot for doing this to me on the night before school reopens right yeah thanks alot! [if you're not using your brain, i'm being sacarstic here] _______________________________________________________________ gordon,yuhern thanks for being there yeah. appreaciated but yeah its my job to solve this case. _______________________________________________________________ well the first thing i have to say to YOU is that whatever you do you'll regret this one day yeah you will. i dont even know why i'm wasting my tears and my emotions for you for peak sake you think you're sorry well i think you lied put a sock in it. _______________________________________________________________ sometimes i wish i didnt know you, didnt have to go through this hardship of life. being a human is hardwork. if only i could ... .... what am i thinking, if i killed myself i'll end up in hell so whats the diff. i'd rather die of old age. i just need a break from everything. love,hate,stuff.... JUST GIVE ME A BREAK! _______________________________________________________ |
| Saturday, June 27, 2009 |
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hah today went to watch transformers again hahah. the show started at 10.10am so i woke up at 8.30am and i was tired but got high later. why i was tired cause i sms yuhern till 2.30am fell asleep then 3.45 waoke up and talked on teh phone with deb liu, gordon and yuhern till 5.15 around there and slept at 5.45 haha yeahh haha ok after the movie went shopping with my mama and papa haha, sissy went for debrief for retreat stuff and we ate at sushi tei was damn full!!!! hhaha on the way queing up, i saw this two little toddlers and one was sitting on the train you know the one put coin and it moves with song yeah then the other one wanted to use so she got off then toddler 1# [girl sitting on the train first] toddler 2 # [girl who got up the train later] toddler 1# sit on train and eat, toddler 2# comes in and parents wanna let her sit and put coin.toddler 1# GETS OUTTA TRAIN AND THE TODDER 2# PARENTS ASK HER TO SIT AS WELL. THEN THE TWO TODDLER BECAME FRIENDS AND EXCHANGE THEIR FOOD WITH EACH OTHER! sooooo cute lahhhh THIS IS A PHOTO :  okk signing off♥♥ phoebe♥♥ |
| Tuesday, June 23, 2009 |
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ok reply to taggys first :) andrea ~ okok i will ahhahhahaha rachel ~ i knoww daopoking her was fun hahahah i also got daopok sia :( hahahahahahah _________________________________________________ haha ytd faith came to my house at 1pm then we kinda used the hair straigthener and played with it hahahah :))) yeah hhaha uber fun then fait and i headed out to the mrt and we waited for the mrt and she dropped off at cityhall while i dropped off at tiong bahru to meet the rest. walked to gordon's house with my sis, deborah liu, david liu and and i forgot sorry!!! ahahha _________________________________________________ at gordon's place : we explored gordon's house cause it was big hahahahahah and he is such a rich kid and says he's poor!!! haha then went out to get drinks and went up to the BBQ pit where the pool is too ahaaha. so we were getting ready the food and yeah but no fire yet lah haha BBQ later cause it was only 4+ 5 i dunnoe around there. then they started trying to get ppl into the pool hhaha yeahh but we (my sis, deborah and me) then the rest came tot he BBQ pit to meet us and like everyone was throwing everyone into the pool hahahah damnn funny! and soon all the guys were wet and there were only us left (us= deborah liu, phyllis, my sis, me) soooo after that we went to play polar bear and we had funfun haha firswt round, polar bears won, second round villagers won, third round villagers won and they were back to throwing ppl in the water! they managed to throw phyllis in. then they went chasing deborah around hahahha and she finally got thrown in then deb and adler pushed me in the pool :(((( so sad rightt!!!!! then they had a hard time trying to push my sister in but in the end managed too haha soo in the end we all got wet soo sad right i know! then we went to the water playground for a while and played and then we headed to the pool again and i was drying off when elvin and fishy threw me in!!!! :((( yes then throw here throw there i got thrown lotsa times too then we had our BBQ haha we ate chicken wings and hotdogs and satay and otah hahaha and lesson number 1 ! OTAH IS A NO GO WITH ANY SOFT DRINKS ! THE TASTE RESULT = EEEWWWW ONLY EAT OTAH AND DRINK WATER TOGETHER OTHER SOFT DRINKS GROSSS TASTE MANN hahah then we ate and play and ate and p-lay and got thrown into the pool again and again hahaha :(( then phyllis they all left and me my sis, deb, fishy, gordon, jethro and david lee were left and we BBQed marshmallows :)))) yummy yummy!!! then cleaned up and i forgot who carried my sis and threw her in the pool ouch man haha he litereally carried her haha poor nic! yes changed and cleaned up and oh and lesson 2) fishy is very nice to hit so can vent anger on him hahah jkjk lah then erm jethro walked me and my sis to the mrt while the rest went up to gordon's house and jethro left for his home haha and we reached home and showered! yeahh it was super funfunn and yeahh i had funn funn too :)) reached home around 11 + pm yeahh :)))) haha okk i gtg do other stuff noww ttyl okk ________________________________________________ signing off♥♥ phoebe♥♥ |
| Wednesday, June 17, 2009 |
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HELLOOOOOOO SINGAPORE! i miss retreat alreadyyyyyy sorry i didnt post this earlier like right after i came back to singapore cause i was super tired slept through the entire next day hahahah :P let me tell you why later. so ytd i was out so didnt post too and the day before ytd i was too lazy haha so i finally am posting it now :) it's gonna be a longggggggggggggg post so be prepared to read okk :)))) here goes... .... ________________________________________________ monday, 8 june 2009, i woke up bright and early at 4.30am and got cleaned up and changed and got ready to leave singapore with all the things i needed. my father already went to pick my sister at 4am as she had overnight prayer in church. then we went off into a cab to the airport :))) at the airport we went for our delicious breakfast there though i couldn't eat much cause it's too early. boarded the plane at 7+am.[i slept through the entire plane ride.] reached malaysia airpot at 8+am [the plane ride is only 40mins] took a cab to the palace of the golden horses hotel! [40mins cab ride] and i slept through the cab ride hhaha so did my sis haha... reached the hotel and it was sooo prettyyy... like really really huge and pretty haha :)))) so we reached the hotel at around 9.35am if i'm not wrong. so my sis sat down and waited for her the other commitee people as she was one of the retreat comm. waited till 10am for them. i followed my parents as no one reached yet cause i took the plane while others followed the church by taking coach. so followed parents went to mines shopping mall and shopped :) i bought a supergirl shirt hahaha :))) and bought other stuff :))))) then took a shuttle bus back at 1.35pm waited till 4pm around there and the church ppl started coming in all my roomie is all on coach 4 haha soo have to wait. so i was walking around the hotel with janelle haha cause she took a car. and i lost my phone back cover! i was traumatized haha but oh well parents didnt scold me soo yeah. yes and finally coach 4 camee. it was the last coach to arrive hahahaha. and like almost everyone got their room key except me!hahaha oh well then headed to ballroom for gamess[i didnt play cause i was looking for my back cover!] then i came back to the ballroom cause i stilll couldn't find anything! then got to know my group peopleeee :)))) [cornelius, lengshan, victoria lim(vicvic), victoria yue, janan , eugene, shawn, meryl and all the other people :P ] yes then my roomies got their key soo there were only two keys and i dunnoe why but yeah. soo i took denise key cause i knew she was going to lose it or something haha. MISS BLUR QUEEN UNIVERSE[denise yap] yes went to the room and the r0om was prettyyy and cold hahaha :))))) and it was super near vicvic's room hahah :))) like 3 steps away only hahah :)))) yeahh headed for dinner and service. :) stayed till 1.35am and then slept hhaha on the bouncy nice beds :))) ______________________________________________ tuesday, 9th june 2009 woke up at 6.30am and got cleaned up :) hahah went for breakfast! had conflakes yumm:))) then headed for devotion with vicvic, esna and kezia. haha same region lah :))) and there's ruth and deborah liu and miss adora :)))) ahaha then went for morning service! morning service, it's 3 hours though i love services but this is just too long sorry i have to say it but it's really toooooo long... it's a killer for a morning! hahah yes then had lunchhhhhhhh and then we had gamessss :))))))) the games werent that messsy but we had to go into the pool for one section ahhaha i got totally wet but it was soo funn hahahha :)))) then we had an hour of free and easy where we went to bathe and the water was super niceeee :)))) then dinner we sat in a big table where we had 6 people sometimes 7 or 8 haha me, rachel,denise,vicvic,esna,kezia and sometimes inclusive of other church peeps :) then we had a 2 hour service! i think night services are soo much better hahah cause it's at night and the people are quite high! :)) then slept at 11.35pm haha i was tired! ______________________________________________ wednesday, 10th june 2009 we [rachel and denise and me]woke up at 6.45am and headed for breakfast with vic,esna and kezia. then headed for devotion again and had a 3 hour service again hahahahhahaha a killer i tell you! then we had lunchhh :))) and had our youth programme! MORE GAMESSS it was funfunfunnnnn :))))))) got damn dirty haha with shaving cream and water hahaha messy messy but soooo super funn and lengshan was super deduper high ahhah and so is vicvic :)) haha then dinner and night service! and we were sad cause it's already wednesday soo fastttt and slept at 2am ______________________________________________ thursday, 11th june 2009 woke up at 6.15am cleaned up and headed to vicvic's room which consist of esna and kezia too haha. then headed to breakfast and then devotion and then another 3 hour service!!! then we had free and easyyy from 2pm to 5pm. so we went out to mines shopping mall, me, kezia, denise,esna,rachel,vicvic, evangeline!!! :))) haha evan came with us haha :))) we took a water taxi for experience and it was sooooooo nicee the winddd :)))) then went shopping and shopping and shopping and ate at A&W HAHAH singapore no more :((( soo we ate there when we are at malaysia :))) then more shopping then we went to the arcade to play haha can you believe it it's 50 cents per token and each game need 2 tokens soo like all the games are RM 1 which means it's only 50 cents per game in singapore haha we played like mad haaahaaaa sorry evan! we bored you to tears! :/ sorry ))) you are super nice and patient man evan! we love you loads loads :))) then headed back to the hotel and went to the room to wash up and then its dinner! hahaha :))) the last dinner we will have for the retreat! and it was the best one cause the food were the nicest among the whole week of meals hahahaha then service! NIGHT SERVICE! was the super touching one! i cried and so did alot of people. God came and spoke to each and everyone of us. we went through the prayer tunnel this super long tunnel made by adults and youths and each youth will walk through it and everyone will stick their hands out and pray for each and everyone of them who goes into the tunnel. then after you come out of the tunnel you join to be the one who forms the tunnel too and pray for the others who goes through the tunnel. youth first then followed by adults. it was the most touching service of retreat! AMEN! AT NIGHT!!! OH MENNN HAHA the last night :((( so we decided not to sleep early one bit haha vicvic and esna and kezia came over to my room and we talked then we went out to the outside at the back of the hotel ahha and walked there was ppl playing captains ball haha our church people :))) then we headed back to the room and we saw cornelius and ernest and they asked if we wanted to play saboteur and we orh anything haha si we walked to the basement and there was noooo one at alll man except 2 hotel staff haha :)))) so we sad down on the floor at the basement[where it was at congress room ] the nice carpetted floor haha :))) we sat behind the stairs. then we played denise haha she was super blurrr she totally screwed up the game lah ahha damnnn funny... and we played it for two rounds and it was 1.30am already. so we went back to the room and corn came to my room with esna, vic and kezia...we were playing in the room and they were disturbing my toy hahah and adora in the end never come the room haha :(( yeah then at around 2am corn went back to sleep haha old already lah cannot stay awake liao haha then we watched tv and chat chat chat we jumped and talk and we were like having sooooo much funnnnn :))))))) then at around 3am the rest went to sleep and left me and kezia. oh btw kezia, esna and vic slept over at our room so two person one bed haha there were three beds mah. then the rest slept haha and me and kezia were talking and watching tv and we slept at around 4am i think around there lah. _____________________________________________ friday, 12th june 2009~ last day :(((( we woke up at 7 am haha totally we woke up and i was like omg! it's 7!!! then everyone popped outta bed and kezia, esna and vic went back to their room cause they haven't packed finish yet tsk tsk haha me, denise and rachel already packed soo we went to wash up and my mama came to double check how i pack my luggage :P hahaah then we left with our luggage saying goodbye to our beloved room :((((( and went to vicvic room and waited for them.then all of us wnet to the ballroom to put luggage except me and kezia cause i taking plane, kezia taking car. then my dad took my luggage and kezia's dad took hers.then we went to breakfast with adora too :))) then we had a cheers and esna took the cup with the rose inside in the middle of the table and cheers cause she no cup hahah then we left for service. i couldnt stay awake in service man haha toooo longg and we were all dozing off hahah :PP then i went outside the ballroom half way through service with vic and saw janelle and nicholas and his friend and david liu :))) then we chatted i took hot water to wake me up and we chatted to make ourselves abit higher haha and went back in. then after service was lunchh our last meal together :((( awwwww!!! yes then we waved goodbye and i left with my parents! ________________________________________________ yes it's sadddddddd i wanna go back retreat!!!!! i kinda miss them like we see each other everyday and suddenly i only see them once a week gosh mann hahah okk i blog finish le very tired now gotta goo now :) ________________________________________________ ok ytd went to watch drag me to hell and i swear! I AM NEVER EVER EVER WATCHING ANOTHER HORROR MOVIE AGAIN! ENDING SOOO SUCKISHHHHH SOOO SADDD LAHHHH HAHAHAHAHA OOKKK MEL AT MY HOUSE NOW GOTTA GO signing off♥♥ phoebe ♥♥ |
| Sunday, June 7, 2009 |
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reply to taggys :))) rachel : ahaha awwwww it's okay haha i get to check in at 3pm and you guys are only coming in at 5pm hahaha i told you to take plane but you dont want haha so oh well haha see you there!!!! cant waitttt denise: haha yes yes you little monkey rocks hahahaaaa miane :))) : COOKIEEEE... i miss you loads okk will relink soon :))) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- okay! heyheyy people! i'm going to KL tmrw with my beloved church and beloved church people :))) they rock my socks :)) haha i cant waittt mannnnnn haha will be back on the 12th soooo wait for me yeahhh hhaha blogging will regain on the 12th maybe i might use my friend's laptop in KL to blog who knows hahahahah sooo will miss you all and 2/5 cant wait for the outing!!! update me soon kk :)))) lovelovesss okidoki off to pack finish and sleep cause tmrw gotta get up at 4 am? around there haha yeahh sooooo byebye :)))) lovelove talk to you all soon okay :))) loveloves ! sigining off [no hearts cause i'm using sis com not mine haha] phoebe! :) |
| Friday, June 5, 2009 |
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reply to tagboardssss : gabwai ~ haha yessss i miss you tooo hahaah :)))))) will link youu soon :))))))))))) lovesss beatrice~ ahah you spelled your own name wrongly gosh! ahhaha yes yes our spastic facessss ahhahahaaaaaaaa denisee~ haah haha yah lah i spastic she spastic and you crazily spastic :P crystalll~ heyheyyy crystalll long time noo see hahah yess i cutt bangs :D cheryllll.a~ hahah yesyes one word fatullah ahahah whatever hahahaha goodluck tonight and you arh scare me i thought what you write on my tagboard chey only the fatt [fatullah] only what! aiyo hahahaha ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- hellooooo i went to cheryl's performance on sunday and it was awesome :) hahaha cheryl augustine sooo sexy :))))) hahaha. today i went to pulau ubin for a dry run of what we are going to do for the grace family day event yeahh hahaha soooo cool ahahaha im going to know things that people dont know and soo exciting hahah driven back home and now typing this after my nice bath!!! can i ask you people... am i nice to bully??? why does everyone like to bully me? of all people me? i go to rehearsal and people bully me they keep ka ciao-ing me haha I VERY NICE TO KA CIAO IS IT!? :( maybe it's because i'm the youngest there... in church i get bullied by people too :((( like how kirby and joshua lui thinks i'm gullible and likes to trick me! and joshua lui claims that i bully him :O! helloooo im sooooo INNOCENT cann!!! then that denise yapp sooooooooo eeeyeeerrr always disturb bully me ahha but i bully her back soo its fair! then in school!!! juli also bully me! evilllll people! its either they say i like somebody and it spreads or they just like to pat my head! :/ sooo my question is AM I THAT NICE TO BULLY????? answer me on the tagboard! thanks yeah sooo cheryl augustineee sorry i wont be able to make it tongith really really sorryy well goodluck tonight yeah :)) and goodluck to you and everybody in the performance yeah ;) heh heh hehhh... and isabelle! sorry about last night k! sorry my parents last minute dont allow... well to all people! retreat is coming in two dayssss yipeeee!!!!!!!!! cant cant cant cantt waitttt! well see you in malaysia haha cause im taking plane hahaha i'll reach at 8am and you'll reach in the afternoon hahaha so people please do not i repeat DO NOT sms me from the 8th june till 12 june as i will be overseas in KL thankyou ;))) greatly appreciated :))) sigining off♥♥ phoebe♥♥ |