Life

Friday, September 25, 2009

hello everyone (:
end of years are coming up in 2 weeks tops girls so study hard 2/5 show what we've got ! we can do it!
been studying this week (: proud of myself that i actually had the mood to study and when i didn't, i forced myself to and in the end, i end up studying till late (: haha great!

i'm so excited for eoys to end and before streaming results comes out, i would totally go party like a rockstar first. i've got a few things planned in mind so far.not everything but a few things for the first week of hols (:

1. go shopping with farisya (: for heels, dress and everything awesome !
2.go parties to party like a rockstar that's coming up (:
3.movie marathon with buddies!
4.try to host a slumber party? haha who knows?!
5.GO XMAS SHOPPING WITH MEL DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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well the rest is still yet to be decided and of course lastly , obviously i'll start planning for my bday party when it hits 20 plus november! (: hahah

so many things i want to do during the holidays so things are yet to be decided and i cant wait!

meanwhile it's time to study well for my eoys and so that i'll do well for streaming! so i cant disappoint people so i'll study! for my sick! ITS GOOD FOR ME!
haha alrighties
i shall switch off my computer now (:
ahahha
blog soon (:

xoxo
muacks
phoebe!

loveyou and
missyou!
<33

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

hey all you readers (:
sorry i did'nt blog for so long. i was busy studying and i am still studying. end of years are coming in 18 days!! that means 2 weeks and 4 days more! That's really fast, it'll pass really fast you know. So two-fivians! remember to start mugging! yeah?! we'll do our best in eoys and proof to our parents, ourselves, ms teo that we can do well if we put our effort in it yea!? JIAYOU TWO-FIVIANS 09~

life, life has been really okay lately. besides the fact that i have to mug and mug and mug, but it's for my own good right? so yeah! i'll do my very best man! i will!!!

well basically this entire week, i feel sad. well it's because of something that's bothering me yeah. and the day that comes that i'll be even sadder is friday. i dont want friday to come and i have my own reasons so don't ask alrights(: haha thanks dears (:

anyways i hope that the friday thing won't affect me on my studies and that i'll still be able to concentrate cause by the time on friday comes, i have 2 weeks till eoys and i cannot afford to lose my concentration ! so yeah
anw going offline now so gotta off my computer now. i'll blog soon alrights (:

xoxo
muacksmuacks
phoebe!

Friday, September 18, 2009

hey guys!

sorry i've not blogged for awhile now. As the busy schedule comes up, i'll be starting to mug for school. Actually i've already started to mug but obviously i'm continuing to mug till eoys are completely over! i'll do my very best to make sure i get my good grades and hopefully i'll do well for my eoys (:

anyways jimin is gonna migrate to korea ): damn
why you leave me behind arh?! hhahaa
take care of yourself ok! must come back visit ok (:
i know you love me and i love you too (: hahah
;)

okok gotta run off now haha

xoxo
muacksmuacks
phoebe!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

omgomggg kimbum soo adorable!!!!!!!!!!!!! omgomg
... ... ... ... hahahahahahahhahahahaahhaahaaha shalalalaallaa....
the commercial chao adorable!!!

watch it! if cannot watch then go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaawDhrwJt4

shalalala! hahahaa okk i'm going to off the computer now! soo yeah... hahaha okok

xoxo
muacksmuacks
phoebe!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

its the start of hols and i'm starting to study like insane! i have to its the best i can do myself proud! i'll settle all my problems after EOYs i guess. needa concentrate on studies first (: alrighties! phoebe! JIAYOUJIAYOU!

many have happened and i'll probably not blog bout it i dont want too many people to know and start spreading stupid stuff all around! ): so yeah...
i dont understand the fact that i have mixed feelings but oh well i cant really be bothered anymore so yeah i'm just gonna ignore it till after exams? we'll see lah if not i'll just bother bout it actually yeah...

so yeap gonna study hard hard for streamings (: i cant wait for november ! so many people's bday! weeeee haha soo funn and exciting haha (((: cannot wait alrights its the begining of hols im gonna like off the com and do some stuff first before i go sleep so yeap erm blog next time okk (: haha

loveloves
xoxoxo muacksmuacks
phoebe!

Friday, September 4, 2009

i've been thinking this past few days... not smsing a lot of ppl for this 2 days really works. i was able to think properly of what i should do and not to do. what was going on in my life and what was not. what was right and what was wrong. what i was confused about and what i just want to let go. it's been a lot of thinking and probably my school friends could tell as i apparantly to their surprise, i wasnt smsing during meals. heh.
WELL, so yeah i can finally think properly and not outta my mind and going insane. i'm alright now i guess. well thats what i think. haha... been closer growing closer to friends lately (: which is good! well besides that,
I RECEIVED MY REPORT FILE TODAY!
i am sooo screwed when i tell my mum about it tmrw but yeah i have to face it sooner or later so yeap! hope i'll survive! i failed science, maths and geography. i got all 40+ like wth!!!
though the so called CAs which i dont have was a whole load of small little tiny test around the term and our homeworks. so when i was absent i got a 0 soooo thats a sad thing thats why i failed ))): but nvm i shall study harder this hols and prove to my mother (: after hols its 2 weeks to EOY that means STREAMING! GOSH! I'M SCARED! I SHOULD START CHOINGING NOW THOUGH but i'm really relax which is a BAD THING! soo yeah i'm gonna start studying so yeappp JIAYOUJIAYOU PHOEBE! YOU CAN DO IT! 3 WEEKS TO EOY/STREAMING and then its PARTY!!! got a few parties after EOY/ STREAMING sooo for the sake of being able to attend the parties and being able to get the marks i want so i can go to the future school i wanna go and cause it's streaming and i have to work hard and all my best this yearr!!! I AM GOING TO CHOING! NO MORE RELAXING! though a little late to start but its better than NOTHING so lets go lets go PHOEBE!

JIAYOUJIAYOU 2/5! STREAMING IS COMING WE CAN DO THIS BABES! JIAYOUUUUUUU START STUDYING ARH PPL! DONT STILL SIT THERE LAY EGGS LIKE WHAT ms sin[guitar instructor] says haha STOP LAYING EGGS hahaha!!!! soo come on come one STUDY STUDY ((((: JIAYOU!

okkk i shall go sleep noww haha its already 12~ HAHAHA and its hols! that means 3 more weeks to EOYs... during hols i shall mugggg man muggg hahahaha

ANYBODY WANNA GO STUDY WITH ME???? PLEASE??? I CANT STUDY ALONE! I'LL FALL ASLEEP HAHA :X
BUCK UP ON MY MATHS AND SCIENCE MAN! MUST MUST MUST! GOGOGOO PHOEBE! JIAYOU!

nightsnights! lovelove
xoxoxoxo!
phoebe!!!!!!!!! <33

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

okay i cant say more but to let you guys know, my life totally suck like fucking hell much now!
sorry for the vulgarities! i know i seldom use them but i just cant take it anymore! life really is fucking confusing! yes i'm praying and trying to get back closer to God keeping all my faith and trust in God. so yeah...

im fucking confused and everything and i really hate it this way! people have been asking me about what happen to the old HAPPY PHOEBE! to tell you the truth, it never existed since primary5 onwards... i cant help but put a front when out with ppl i dont want them to worry but the thing is i cant take it anymore... if i put a front some more, i'm gonna go crazy so if this few days/weeks/months i've not been smiling, SORRY i apologise. i just need to chill and think clearly now... having mixed feelings and everything and if you dont understand what is mixed feelings its ok you dont need to understand.

so many problems and all this new things come up in my head and heart! wtf! i cant fucking take it anymore! you know all i want is to live a normal happy God fulfilling life and apparantly it's harder than i thought. i guess its a test given by God but i really cant take it and i'm apparantly failing the test so im gonna buck up. stop thinking bout stuff and just believe and trust in God. it's not easy but i can try! i believe i can do it. thanks for everyone being there for me!

all this stress andd everything.. been losing weight cause of stress then no appetite, its good i lost weight but bad in the way i actually lost weight. i dont know and i dont really care anymore! i dont fucking wanna care anymore... you'll probably tell that im running away again right! but oh well i just cannot help it. i'll try not to run ok i promise. thanks for helping though but it's up to me! so only i can control it thanks for the support guys.

mixed feelings suck like hell! its not fun! its fucking confusing and i freaking cannot take it anymore lah wa lau! CB sia! KNS ! FUCK LAH!
really cannot take it anymore but yeah ok i gotta go. using school com so yeah.

love xoxo
phoebe!