| Tuesday, July 7, 2009 |
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today was the worst day... going to school being emo is one thing but then the next moment i was high and then emo again and now im emotionless! ... feel like dying... just feel like commiting suicide today.... i wanna get sick! just let me get sick and let me have a day or two of break! oh goshh... all i wanna do is just sit at a dark corner and cry... all this will be over in just a flash i just wanna die now... it'll be soo much better if i actually ended my life now but i'll definitely go to hell and live in fire forever and thats worse than this. so i wont keel myself.... instead i'll just sit in a dark corner in the rain and just stay there ppl wouldnt know that im crying cause im in the rain........ well i knew it from the start that i would never fine the guy... i never deserve love anw... im just a piece of useless crap. im not smart, not pretty, not anything like my other friends. falling for someone is like super painful i dunnoe maybe its cause i never felt this way before i hate it.... i guess i'm just gonna cry myself to sleep... well got to go now... not much of a mood... so yeah bye...
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