| Thursday, October 1, 2009 |
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dear bloggers many do not know what i'm really thinking... somehow people seem that im not stressed out or anything... well at least i think so know at the beginning of the year, i thought that i had finally found a really great friend. a friend that i finally can trust and finally can feel loved by someone, but knowingly, things change and well life isnt the way you always want it to be. good things have to come to an end sadly to speak. cliques form over years, clique splits over years. you find true friends as you grow but some just come and go.. you know i thought and i felt like i finally found someone that made me feel like i belonged to the class to the group of friends but you know as time pass by seeing ppl clearer now, its almost the end of term and what i'm feeling now its weird. i've ruined friendships and i've tried to make it good, some work some didnt. i feel like i dont belong there. i feel like i'm always the one left out. the one being extra and being a pooper. its hard to actually find who you can trust and who you cant. some are trustworthy but they might not be close to you or care about you. some seem like they care and they seem real close but they just arent trustworthy. i know ppl who i can trust but somehow i jsut feel like i dont belong there anymore. i'm always the one left out acting like i fit in i always put a smile on my face. but you know i just feel like crying every day of my life ... its running away i know but what else can i do... its hard to change what ppl think. i hate my life. and when i need you here you just arent. God i feeel so stressed! Fucking |